Want

It happened!  I want something.  I want it so bad.  Like nothing I've ever wanted before.

Yesterday my girlfriend and I toured a newly opened gym within walking distance.  We filled out a questionnaire that said to list our employer.  I point it out to my girl and we giggle as I wrote down "Husband".

Shortly after returning home from the gym tour I read the entries on my reading list.  One of the posts was by Tara Sophia Mohr.  She talked a bit about her upcoming program "Playing Big".  I first read about the 6 month program in December and was really into it.  Then I read the cost and became doubtful.  I forwarded the link to the most intelligent and professionally successful gal I know (who also knows my financial sitch) and asked what she thought.  Her response was that the course lessons seemingly could be very beneficial for years to come.  She also said some other positive things that encouraged me to keep thinking of the program as a possibility. 

I've been thinking about this course for these past few months and registration is going to start in March.  Yesterday I wanted that gym membership but it more made me realize just how much I want this course.  It has a 99% completion rate for God's sake!

My husband has never said no to me.  He makes it happen.  If I want something, it's mine.  But, I can't ask for something as expensive as the course.  I won't.  It will literally take money away from my employer's family.  Our dog has needed his teeth cleaned (and extracted) for about a year now but it is $1200 and we never have that much money at one time.  Actually, all of us need to go to the dentist.  We have a leak in our roof that desperately needs insulation, well obviously, but it has since we moved in which will cost $2k.  And we have a leak in our basement.  Both leaks started the same day.  Really.  In the roof and basement.  The same day!  Those are just a few examples of our lump sum money list of needs.  I could give you more but my eyes would start leaking and we can't have a leak on all three floors.

Doesn't matter our obligations, I still want it.  The more I read from Tara's site, the more I want it.  $165 a month is such a commitment to make.  But, I want it.  And I'm going to get it.

How?

I sent an email to a major publication today asking if I can write an article for them and included a sample of what I would write.  I know that probably isn't the protocol but you would be amazed at where I got my band gigs just by doing what "felt right".  And sending that email felt right.  I'm going to be sending a lot more requests like that, and following the formal channels, because I need that monies to pay for that course.

As my husband always says, "Mama gets what Mama wants."  This time it will be with self employed monies though.  I can't wait to share with Tara how I started to play big just to join her Playing Big program.

It's going to happen party people, can you feel it?  

Love,
Marcian

P.S.  I hope you weren't misled into thinking that thing I really wanted was a gym membership ;-)